Lent – forever and in this present moment
Noirin Lynch
Ripples in the rock pools, ripples in the sea
Ripples in the sand dunes rolling into Connemara
Ripples in the sand dunes rolling into Connemara
(Shaun Davey)
The Irish coastline fascinates me, especially the rocky
beaches that I love to clamber over and around. Looking at the Atlantic is an experience of
enormity, power and vastness. Gazing into a tiny rock pool is to know that all
the beauty and hope of life is contained in the smallest drop, in this present
moment.
In the Lenten Gospels Jesus steps away from the noise and excitement of the Jordan and
into a barren place, a place he can be still and pray. All the old temptations
follow him, all the dramas, all the false promises … if God really loved you,
you’d never go hungry. If God really cared, there would be no suffering. You’ve
trusted the wrong person in trusting God …
In this
place-apart, the noises were louder and more insistent … and yet precisely
because of this Jesus sees clearly and responds to them. No I won’t be bought
be today’s bread, some things are more important. No, it doesn’t need to be
easy to be good – some things are more important than safety. Yes, I place my
trust in God and I don’t need any more than that.
Some
days I feel like I am being run by the noises in my head, the noises of the
city, of work, of expectations. I find myself on a treadmill of busy-ness,
stressed and smiling. Then I know I need to go to my desert place. I need the
rocky places and the sea.
So I
step out of the busy-ness and into the calm. At first when I arrive I am
restless. I wander and clamber and take photos and remember a phone call I
meant to make. No signal. Hmmm, maybe that’s a sign. I try and slow down again,
but my heads still busy. I clamber some more, find a perch or a hollow and sit
for a moment. The voices are louder now that I’m still .., or maybe there’s
just no other noise distracting me. ‘you’ve loads to do, go home’. ‘it’s bound
to rain, go find a hat’, ‘maybe there’s a signal here for that phone call’. …
…. I
look out at the sea. The mighty Atlantic
and her waves. I breathe in the salt air
and there is nothing to do but breathe in and out with the beautiful pounding
waves as the prance and dance around the mighty stones. ‘God, but you’re great
really. Really great. It’s all so perfect. There is nothing to do but be here
with you and breathe’.
And
then I realise that the noises that run me are silent. Like the wind took them
away – only it didn’t. I just let myself be present in the present and all the
future stuff wasn’t important any more. Not for this moment at least.
Green, blue,
yellow and red-
God is down in the
swamps and marshes
Sensational as
April and almost incredible
the flowering of
our catharsis.
A humble scene in
a backward place
Where no one
important ever looked
The raving flowers
looked up in the face
Of the One and the
Endless, the Mind that has baulked
The profoundest of
mortals. A primrose, a violet,
A violent wild
iris- but mostly anonymous performers
Yet an important
occasion as the Muse at her toilet
Prepared to inform
the local farmers
That beautiful,
beautiful, beautiful God
Was breathing His
love by a cut-away bog.
Patrick Kavanagh (from
Selected Poems, Penguin books, 1996.)
For me,
Lent has long not been about what type of sweets I give up. Lent has been the
insistent heartbeat of hope … remember you are dust, and into dust you shall
return … remember who you really are … remember all this busy-ness is just
noise … remember …. renew … repent … release …
Lent for me is ‘Beautiful, beautiful beautiful God, … breathing
his love into this over-diary-ed fog’. (with apologies to Kavanagh!). It is my moment of redemption when I remember
that I want to be more than my diary or my plans. It is my space for letting go
and recognising how beautifully I am held in the Fathers hand, how perfect this
life really is and can be. Lent often begins at the sea and in a rock pool –
and it is always in the present moment, with the ever present God - ‘I Am’.
Truly dust we are, and to dust we shall return;
and truly yours we are, and to you we shall return.
Help this to be a time of turning round and beginning again.
A Time of
Turning Round - written by Jan Sutch Pickard, in Traveling to Easter with Jesus as our Guide,
Patmos Abbey—The Order of Saint Columba.http://www.patmosabbey.org/ http://re-worship.blogspot.ie/2012/02/lent-prayer-time-for-turning-round.html
Thanks and blessings for such a beautiful reflection, Noirin.
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